Really?

And it hits me...I am slowly realizing just how long I will be 'off' the bike, the entire season. Fuck. Its really unsettling, almost disheartening. This weekend I watched the sun rise, the temperature increase and my mountain bike hang in the garage.
The pain in my leg continues. I am disbelief that an injury could continue to hurt well over 2 weeks from date of injury. I've learned not to alter my med times & dosages. I thought I was feeling better so I eased off & decreased my dosage. That was a mistake. I've learned pain is always there and it doesn't like being ignored. I paid attention to it all night long. To describe it? Well its not as intense or sharp as broken ribs, its painful enough where even with the meds I am aware of its presence, always. Its like a severe charlie-horse, like a cramp, intense but dulled (mainly due to the meds).
Part of me refuses to believe my race season is 'over' I have an appointment on Wednesday and hope something can be salvaged of the season. I mean I just forked over a bunch of money for my race kit.
I've got to stop, the pain is interfering with my train of thought. More tomorrow...I hope.